Urgh.. Don't you hate those nights where all you want to do it sleep and yet you can't? yep that's tonight for me.. it's nearly 1am and I'm not tired, I took a nap earlier so I guess that's why, blah.

Anyway.. today was my second day at US cellular, it went a little more smoothly than the day before, I have the weekend off, and go back in on Monday.. I am gonna look for a new car tomorrow with my aunt I think if the weather is nice enough, it's been snowing for 2 days straight but it's supposed to clear up tomorrow I think. lets hope.

Other than that today wasn't too exciting and I don’t have much else to talk about right now.. sorry.. not in a talky mood, I'm just trying to get sleepy *sigh*

goodnight.. maybe

Today was eventful, I went to the gynecologist this morning (fun..!!...not) I won't go into details there....
After that I went to the car dealership that has the car I want, nobody came out and offered to give me some more info on it or let me test drive it, but that's okay... It was freezing outside anyway, one of those cold WINDY days, and when I say windy I mean hold on to your face because it might fall off, kind of windy.
Then I sold my old car (it's so strange calling it my "old car", I just got it 3 months ago..) to one of the mechanics for $33 which was sad because it had more gas in it than what you could buy for that, but that’s alright I guess, if I had sold it to the junk yard or something I would have had to pay to get it towed there which wouldn't have been worth it... The guy gave me the key to open it up so I could clean all my stuff out, and somehow in the process of cleaning the car I lost the key.. don't ask how it happened because I have no idea, I turned the car upside-down trying to find it but no such luck, so I gave him the valet key and he said that was fine.. I should have been born blonde.

While I was there I got a call from US Cellular calling me in for a second interview! I was so excited, they asked me to come in right away so I did, it lasted about 20 minutes, the owner seemed nice enough but I wasn't so sure I had the job... I was really doubting myself about it and thinking it was kind of a long shot because this would be my first job (besides fundraisers and babysitting) but apparently he was impressed with me because they called back a few hours later telling me I had the job if I wanted it!! .................................YAY!!!!!!!!!

...Sorry, I was excited... Anyway I start tomorrow morning, I start out part time but they promised me at least 23 hours a week and a chance to advance to full time which sounds great to me :) I'll be making minimum wage to start (7.50 an hour) PLUS commission so it could really add up, which means I can buy my new car soon :)

Anywho I should go to sleep so I can be fresh for tomorrow :) wish me luck

I have a interview for a job today at my all-time least favorite fast food place ever... dun dun dun......... SONIC! (gaggg i think they even put calories in their water.) not exactly the ideal place for a grease hating, vegetarian to work, but hey it pays, and I need money right now more than ever.

I found a really pretty car that I want to get, and it's in my price range (that is, once I have a job) it's a 2000 Dodge intrepid and it's on the red side of maroon from what I could tell on the pictures it's gorgeous, and it's practical for when me and Jimmy get married and start a family  (roomy, 4 door, yet not a granny-mobile).. and it's only about $4,500... not bad.

anywho, I'm sorry this is a short entry (not like anyone reads this anyway) but I gotta go get ready for my interview... tootles.

Urgh well today has been interesting...

I left my house at about 2pm to go pick up my friend Stephanie to go hang out cause I was bored, I have to drive on a highway to get to town from my house, the speed limit is 55 there and I usually go about 60 (breakin' the law!) anyway I noticed I couldn't get my car to go any faster than 50, even when I floored it.. so I was a little concerned but I figured I would wait it out and see if something was really wrong, the first stop light I came to my car just completely died at, and then again at the next light, so I putted my way to jiffy lube, and they put new oil in it (and didn't charge me which leads me to believe they did nothing or very little) so I called a REAL mechanic and told him what was going on and they said to get down there right away, so I putted my way back across town and barely made it, but I made it. He glanced it over and said he was afraid my engine may be bad (as far as I know it is as old as the car is... 1992) and a new one could cost anywhere between $1,500 and $4,000 which my car is only worth about $1,000... CRAP I managed to total a car without doing anything to it! go me. I've only had the thing since December, and it worked fine up till now. I am looking for a job right now but that money was going to go towards getting a house and furniture and such for when me and Jimmy get married, but now I need a new car (possibly) it sucks.

the moral of the story: Don't buy a car that is almost as old as you are.

I'm amused, I'm listening to Feist and my dog seems to be very confused by the song, she keeps looking at the speakers and tilting her head, haha I love it.

I was watching the Tyra show earlier, they had on a size 20 girl and a girl who wore a size 0 (lucky bitch) they had them "trade weights" by putting the thin girl in a fat suit that made her look like a size 30 (why not a 20 I wonder?) and made the heavy girl up to LOOK like she was wearing a fat suit. The thin girl had to walk around NYC in the fat suit and go on a date, and the heavy girl had to go to a club and tell people she was wearing a fat suit and show them fake pictures of her being thin.. the outcome was that the thin girl saw how people can discriminate against large people, but she was trying to say that people discriminate against thin people as well... I don't think so.! Honestly I think if anyone has anything bad to say about the way a thin person looks (unless of course they look sick) it is probably just because they are jealous and are trying to make themselves feel better, I've been a size 5, and I've been a size 14, and trust me, as a 5 I felt alot better about myself, and honestly when people would say stuff like "oh my gosh your hip bones stick out ew" I could tell they were just trying to make themselves feel better and trust me it's alot better than having kids poke your stomach and giggle "hehe chub"
I'm a size 9 now, and I hate it... don't get me wrong: if you are a size 9 or a 29 you shouldn't be ashamed, but for ME this isn't where I want to be. You know how some people stop eating when they are stressed? Yeah well I'm the opposite, when my fiancé went to Iraq I was a 5, when he came back 8 months later I was a 9, and I feel so disappointed in myself because I had actually planned on getting TONED and losing weight while he was over there so he would have a pleasant surprise when he got back, but no such luck... and I know I only have myself to blame.
He's great about it though, he still tells me I'm the most beautiful woman he's ever seen and that he would still love me even if I weighed 400lbs, but you see... I wouldn't love me.
I know I sound so superficial, but this is the way I think, this is the way I see myself, I sometimes wonder if I have anorexic tendencies, because even when I was at my smallest I wanted to be smaller, I think 110 or 115 would be a good weight for me (I’m 5'5") but who knows, maybe if I got that small I would want to go smaller? Although I don't think my goals are that unreal.

anyhow enough of that.

Well I've decided to re-join the world of blogging, I had one of these years ago and kind of abandoned it but I miss it now, I need somewhere to express my opinions freely and complain about my day... For instance, 2 of my fish died today, I know, not exactly the end of the world but it is frustrating (and sad for the fish :() one of them had been alive for about 6 months and he died... so sad, and the other I just bought a few weeks ago... I wonder what I'm doing wrong?.. But I digress.

I wonder if anybody will ever read this? will this be one of those sad blogs that nobody really reads? or will it be one of those famous amazing ones that gets on the news? I wonder if I even care really?

Well I guess I should stop babbling about nothing and let you in on who I am:
My name is Naomi, I am 18 and engaged if you have a problem with that, if you plan on saying some crap to me like "oh but you're so young, you have so much time to get married" I know I have alot of time to get married and start a family, however I choose to do it now because I believe with all of my heart that I have found the man I am meant to be with, we have been through more together in the 2 years we've been a couple than most people have in 10 years... He's been to Iraq and back, we've had good times and bad, so many trials and we've come through each of them loving each other more than we did before, and I can't wait to marry that man... So basically just keep your opinions to yourself on that topic, thanks.

Lets see... What else?
I am very interested in politics, I never really was at all before the past year or so, but I voted for the first time this year and I want to know who I am voting for. Everyone has their opinions on just about every issue you can think of, and it is our right as Americans to express them and allow our voice to be heard, I don't understand why anybody wouldn't vote, yes maybe you are just one person of thousands, and even if you don't believe your vote will make that big of a difference, it still WILL make a difference, why would you put stitches across your own lips by not expressing your opinion and voting for the person you believe is the best person to lead our country? it really isn't that hard.


Anyway I am gonna get a layout for this thing now so it won't look so horribly generic... ciao.